I walk across the gym floor...the DJ is rolling 50's tunes, the high-walled room is dim, the mood festive, and there he is...smiling at me from across the gym. His eyes are innocent, blue, sparkly and when he sees me, he comes running to me and kisses my hand. My heart swoons...my heart bubbles over with love. I am immediately taken back to that night in December of 1999 when I first opened my door to see such a good looking guy...but this image tonight is his son, my son. The second love of my life. The image of his daddy.
The elementary school's sock hop and hot dog night is underway and my Kindergartner celebrates sheer excitement by running around and around and around the gym. He is so handsome. He is still young enough to enjoy being with his friends and enjoy being with his mommy while in the company of his friends. In fact, his little "buddies" as he calls them, even wave at me and say "hi Gage's mom!".
What did I do to deserve such a prince, who lays by me with his arm around my neck while I read to him; who squeezes my face with his little hands before he kisses my forehead; who holds the door open for me and proclaims "ladies first"; who tells me for no reason "I love you, Mom"; and who thinks I can glue anything back together to make it new again? What did I do - I became a mom.
As always, whenever I am privileged to be in the presence of children, I have so much trouble understanding the cruelty some adults display toward the children in their lives. Oh, those little clones of ourselves can be the most trying, most obnoxious, most stressful parts of our existence. However, whether they be biological, adopted, fostered or just in our care for the evening, those children will reflect to others the love and compassion they are shown. Men and women across the globe grieve for the children they do not have, while yet other men and women have the richest gift of all and ignore it. Or even worse...they push a child's love away.
Greater love hath no man than this, that a man lay down his life for his friends. John 15.13 KJV
If we as humans, are capable of giving our lives for our FRIENDS, what even greater love has God given us for our own CHILDREN?! In fact, it is our duty to love our children, to rear our children, teach our children, make them valuable members of society. I am not, I will not ever be perfect. I will never be the Wonder Mom or receive the Mom of the Year Award. However, I will always love my young son, who looks just like my husband and his daddy. I am Gage's Mommy. Oh, what an honor.
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